From night into day,
From chill into warmth,
From sleep into awakening,
We open our hearts to the wonder of life,
Born again.-Rev. David M. Hors
All this is hard to believe, so hard to believe; life moves by so fast; here it is almost the end of 2019, the end of a decade and time for a much-needed change of health and mind. For a good part of my 26 years on this earth, I have been at a constant struggle with myself. I have blamed myself for the events that have happened to me in the past. I have let my past inhibit my present all too often. I have allowed it lead me to spiral out of control; into a fit of anger and disappear. I have been so ready to help others, to move on and to forget my past that I failed to see my health and spiritual needs as that of importance and a priority; however that's about to change, for if I am to help others I must also help myself and that means that I take care of all of the things I have put off as I did not want to face the pain and heartache that I knew they would bring but I must. I must meet them, and I must do it now. I must take control of my own life, and to do so, I must face what I have ignored for so many years.... myself.
I have no way of knowing what lies ahead in the months/year to come, what hardships or struggles I might face but what I do know is that I am a strong, resilient and loving person, who once I set my mind to it can do anything I set out to do. My first steps in changing/taking control of my life are small ones that, in the grand scheme of things, will have a significant impact on who I am and who I want to become. In the weeks to come, if I have not done so already by the time this is posted, I will be hopefully starting life/spiritual counseling to work through the traumas from my past that are affecting my present, and will without a doubt affect my future if not handled with the love, time and care they need and deserve.
I will do so as a free and responsible act for myself to remind me of the truth and meaning of my life, and who knows, in doing so, I might also find new meanings to life and ` new truths. All this to say I am ready for the journey that lies ahead, I am ready for a change, and I am prepared to take control of my life into my own hands. Wish me luck, and happy New Year, New Decade, and possibly New You as well.
In Love, Faith and Action,
Roddy Biggs